"THOSE HARD TIMES...WHO KNOWS BETTER THAN I?"

"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
--Albert Einstein

My spirits are a bit low today. Things aren't looking too good for me. I know that everything will work out for the best in the end. I truly believe that, but at the same time I'm trying to figure out a way to deal with everything that's happening right now. Tears have been flowing from my eyes all day. The bills are piling up and I don't know when I'll truly be out of this hole. Let me give you the breakdown of what I owe:

10K in medical bills
8K in student loans
2K in taxes
2K in credit card bills
1K misc bills

Plus I've got my cell phone bill, my storage bill and I need to pay for studio time. Appearance wise, I've been trying to give myself manicures and I've been washing my own hair and giving myself Dominican treatments whenever I get a chance, so at least I don't have to pay for those. I'm also lucky that I'm a shop-a-holic because I've got plenty of clothing, shoes and accessories that still have tags on them. Even though my weight fluctuates, so far it's been on the lower side of my range so everything either fits or it's too big which isn't really a problem.

I'm making due, but I need so much to happen for me to be able to climb out of this hole. Imagine being 23K in debt and only having 45K gross earning potential. Forget my potential even. My savings are depleted. I can't even FIND a job. I've gone on interview after interview, I've hit up the temp agencies...so many doors have been slammed in my face. I'm just overwhelmed right now...

FEELING BETTER...

A friend of mine just called me from London. She doesn't know the extent of my problems but she knows that I've been having a rough time, especially with the job search. She gave me some encouraging words. Not too long ago she was also pounding the pavement so she understands how the constant rejection is affecting me. I really needed to hear what she had to say. God always shows himself to us when we need to see him the most. I think I just got the boost I need to continue...

I'm doing a lot of complaining but despite everything I'm dealing with, I know that I am truly blessed. Life could be a lot worse. Look at those poor men in the Bronx who lost their whole families. If I'm feeling overwhelmed, I can't even imagine what they're feeling. I wish I could help ease their pain. If you or anyone you know would like to help, CLICK HERE.

It's a miracle that God allows us to wake each morning...one we should cherish.