"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
--Eleanor Roosevelt
I just found out that more people hate me. What the fuck am I supposed to do? I know you can't please everyone but what is it about me that incites so much hatred in others? I try to be a good person. I give others the same respect I feel I deserve. I give as much as I can give. Sometimes I give even more than I can. I don't even expect anything in return. How many times have I given my last dollar? How many times have I listened to a complete stranger go on and on about their problems?
Am I supposed to change the way I dress? Change the way I carry myself? Should I hang my head low because my body is home to a few more pounds than the next person? I mean damn, I spent so many years getting to this point. I'm finally happy with the way I look. I may not like myself 100% but I do like the way I look. I refuse to go back to that dark place.
If it's not one thing it's another. Sometimes I just want to go away and start over in a place where no one knows I exist. I'm so tired of the bullshit. I try to live my life in a positive way. I've been treated so badly by the people who are supposed to love me yet I still find it in my heart not to be an evil person. Lord knows it's hard. I have slipped up a few times (my ex knows what I mean...bastard!), but for the most part I still believe that despite the bullshit, I will find some good people to share my life with.
Am I being too naive?
Is everyone in life as fucked up as the people I've come across?
1 comments:
I don't think your being naive. I respect that you can be positive after going thru all that. Don't change
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