"It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting."
--The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
ERIC WEST ya'll. Eric West. He is dope! There are some real assholes in the industry, but this guy is so different. I dig his energy. I don't mean to gush, but I get so giddy when I come across really good, positive minded people in this fucked up life. So many people are out for self and when they get what they want, they forget about the people and situations that made them who they are.
My week has been okay. I'm trying to stay positive. I never got word back about my interviews last week, but I did sign up with an agency called GAINOR STAFFING. The people there are really nice. I'm digging their energy (gosh I'm turning into a fuckin hippie!). I don't sense that they are bullshitting me when they say they'll find me something soon. I don't know, maybe I'm just being overly optimistic. I know I absolutely HAVE to find something soon because I received my last unemployment check this week. 26 weeks went by fast as hell. I don't even want to think about what will happen if I don't find something within the week. I'll try not to think about it, but it's hard. The last time I was unemployed, practically homeless and broke as a joke (in 2001), I didn't handle it very well. I took it really hard. I almost ended my life because of it. I know for a fact that I'm stronger than I was then. I won't get to that low point. I know why God chose me to live the life I live. I know what my personal legend is.
In my favorite book The Alchemist, Santiago, the protagonist, takes a journey and ends up exactly where he thought he would in his mind. He took many detours but ended up living the life he was destined to live. I believe that's where my journey is taking me. I've been through so much and I've been knocked down so many times that if I don't believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, I'll just give up. My faith is all that I have.
A wise man wrote to me today that "God puts us through a lot when he needs to humble us." Those are some of the truest words ever spoken. Each time I've been put through my worst moments in life, it's been because I've lost sight of what was important. I lost sight of what I really wanted to do in life. It's so easy to forget your dreams and just chase the money and leisure. You forget that you're on a mission to accomplish something that God wants you to accomplish. I'm grateful that I've been able to put my life in perspective. I don't doubt that I'll take more detours along the way, I'm not perfect, but going through these hard times is making it harder for me to forget where I'm headed and I know for damn sure I'll never forget where I came from. And no, I still haven't gotten laid :(
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